The First Step... again, again

This journey is taking a long time. It is taking a long time because I won't take the first step. No other reason. I read back through some old posts and they are embarrassing. So many are filled with "disgust and so this..." analogies that never come to fruition. I even ignore this blog because it is a constant reminder of my failures. I have a problem. It is a big problem.  I am completely addicted to this unhealthy, sedentary lifestyle. Breaking the bond with that addiction is proving to be harder than I thought. I am not the person I used to be; I am inside of this one.

I don't know how to fix what is going on behind the scenes. Try to take the first step, I guess... again.